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My Story

I get the "my story" question a lot so here goes. It is a bit long so bear with me.

My weight loss journey began many years ago. Very early in my life I was a normal active child. In fact, I was thin. I have specific memories of eating dinner with my family and it being pointed out that I could eat whatever I wanted and still be thin. I was about seven or eight. Why this was an accomplishment, I’ll never know. But I remember eating more then, why not? I “couldn’t get fat” and let’s face it I like to eat!

Then puberty hit, along with a small hypoactive thyroid problem. I gained a few pounds but I was far from obese. I was just a little, dare I say, chunky? I stayed chunky heading into my pre-teen years, and I was aware that others saw me as so. My father on more then one occasion would point out my 10-20 extra pounds.

The Teenage Years

At 13 years old I was tall, just about 5’8’’ and I remember exactly what I weighed, 150 pounds. According to most weight charts, I was in the healthy range, barely. What does that mean to a 13 year old? Not much. All I knew was that I did not look the way I wanted to look and so my journey began.

Throughout high school, I would bounce between 155 and 165 pounds. There would be months where I would do 100 sit ups before bed and eat nothing but salad for lunch and a small portion of dinner. Part of me at that time wished I were anorexic. I know how bad that sounds but it’s true. I longed to be thin. I would look at my thin friends with envy and wondered what it would be like to wear a bathing suit with confidence. I knew I wasn’t obese and I knew most people didn’t think I was fat but I was unhappy with my body. I started wearing oversized clothes and men’s jeans thinking I would hide my chunky frame and round belly. Truthfully, it did. I wasn’t so self-conscious it was crippling but I was ashamed of what was under my clothes.

The College Years

I graduated high school at a comfortable weight of 155-160, a common size 12. Overall, I was happy but still longed to be thinner. Then the common freshmen 15, or should I say 25, reared its ugly head. I was not preoccupied with being thin then I was having too much fun eating late night meals and getting my fill at the all you can eat college commons.

I returned home for winter break where a very honest family member pointed out the fact I “put on a few pounds” during a holiday meal. I was almost in tears. Yet, I didn’t really do much about it. That summer I watched what I ate and dropped a few pounds, settling into my new comfortable 165.

This cycle continued throughout college. Every school year I would gain about 20 pounds only to loose about half of that the following summer. By the time I graduated, my average weight went from 155 to 180 and a size 14. Then I really lost control. I was depressed I let myself go as much I did yet I still really didn’t do much about it. I remember wanting to be thin and trying to get control but never staying motivated enough to stay in control. My need to eat always seemed to take over.

I entered graduate school immediately after undergrad. Somehow, and I really do not know how, within a year I was 210 pounds. Nothing fit. I had to buy a business suit for graduation in a size 16. I was horrified, depressed, and mad at myself for not doing anything about this. I now longed to be that chunky girl in high school. I looked at pictures of myself in disbelief. I was skinny! What the heck was I thinking back then?

Post College

I now had a mission. In that first year after graduate school, I went down to about 165. How did I do it? I really don’t want to tell you but I will. I tried everything, the zero calorie diet, fasting, the Zone, Xenadrine, and finally Atkins. I found the most success on low carbohydrate dieting. I was a low carb guru. I knew the “net effective carb” count of everything. I would eat bacon, bun-less cheeseburgers and pounds of cheese. It seemed perfect for me. I was able to eat large portions of the foods I liked. I even got back down to 155! I found a solution but there was one minor flaw. I was obsessed. I dreaded eating out, I agonized over every decision and it wasn’t healthy. I mean emotionally healthy. The weight started coming back on, I just could not eat that way long term. It was not something I could live with. For the next few years, I would bounce between 160 and 175.

Then, in the summer of 2004, my husband and I decided we would try to start a family. I still had losing weight on the brain and I thought I would try weight watchers. It seemed like a healthy alternative to what I was doing. I knew I couldn’t cut all carbohydrates out of my diet and I had to start eating healthier since I was trying to get pregnant. I tried the point system. It seemed so simplistic and easy I had to try it. In the next 4 weeks, I lost about 11 pounds. I could not believe it. I did not feel deprived. To my surprise, I was eating real foods, including carbohydrates and losing weight.

Then the good news came, I was pregnant. I was happy but scared. I knew I could not continue to diet and I was worried I would be out of control. My worst fears came true. I ate healthy throughout the pregnancy but I ate a lot, I mean a lot. I believe my last weigh in before I gave birth I was just about 230 pounds. The gain was significant, excessive for a pregnancy.

Post Pregnancy

I walked back into weight Watchers with my two-week-old son.He was my ultimate motivation. I did not want to be a self conscious, unhealthy mom who uses the “baby fat” excuse because I knew it wouldn’t be true anyway. I dove in headfirst and followed the program to a “T”. I stayed in my point range and made healthier choices. I soon discovered that the program works. It worked so well that weeks I thought I would post a gain because I “ate all my points” I still lost. As long as I was journaling, eating my points with healthy foods, being honest about what I was eating and staying active I was losing. It was truly unbelievable.

It is still unbelievable! For the first time in my life, I am thin. It is still sounds weird for me to say that. I know you should not be preoccupied with body image but let’s be honest here, it was about being skinny. Now I am a lot more concerned with healthy choices then I ever was. I feel better when I eat better it just seems so natural.

Looking back, I wasn’t diagnosed with an eating disorder but it seems obvious now. I would get depressed about my weight and binge eat. I remember times when I would sneak food. I remember ordering at restaurant and figuring out how I could get the most food. I remember eating meals just because it was mealtime not because I was hungry and in spite of the fact that I just ate. Why I did that to myself, I will never know but I do know I am now happy to put it behind me.

52 Original Responses to “My Story”

  1. on 06 Dec 2006 at 1:25 pmAnne

    Reading your story, I thought, ‘how has this other woman lived my life?’ - well, except for actually losing weight. :) I started WW 1.5 years ago, losing 4 lbs, only to find out I was pregnant and went off. 9 months after my daughter was born, I find I’m still blaming the weight on the pregnancy. I’m starting again, and trying to take it 1 day at a time.

    Thanks for your inspiring story. I’m bookmarking your site for those tough days…

  2. on 17 Dec 2006 at 6:47 pmAmanda

    Thank you so much for posting this website. Being able to see others progress on WW has helped me so much this time around. Your story is so much like mine, I can’t believe it!

  3. on 28 Dec 2006 at 11:36 pmdawn

    I feel like I just read my life in a nutshell especially the low carb thing. I just spent a year wasting time trying to perfect the low carb diet! I think I expected overnite successes from something - anything. Thanks for posting your story! D.

  4. on 30 Dec 2006 at 3:17 pmNik

    I hate to sound like a broken record, but REALLY! How can so many of us share the same story?? My only story difference is that I lost 75 lb pre-pg on WW, then gained it all back plus some in those 9 months. I tried coming back once post-pg, but never devoted the time to myself and failed. Well, its 2 years later and here I am again!

    Thanks so much for sharing YOUR story. It’s so nice to know its both possible and has been done successfully by another :)

  5. on 03 Jan 2007 at 7:06 pmCaryn

    Just like everyone else who posted, I think you lived my life!

    I am looking at your current weight picture and seeing that I was that weight when I graduated from High School and thought I was grossly fat! I too lost weight on the low carb diet after having my son (30 pounds in 5 months) but soon realized that you can’t live your life like that and when I was told I had high blood pressure at age 26, I about passed out! I have started weight watchers now, and with the help and support of my friends, husband, and sister-in-law (she switched over from Jenny Craig), I will succeed and I will make a life change.

  6. on 05 Jan 2007 at 10:48 amNot the Skinny Chick

    Roni, your story is remarkable. And the pictures make it even more so. Thank you for taking the time to create such a beautiful site and for being so candid about your own journey. It’s clear that others are finding it as inspiring as I am.

    Your site will be at the top of my “go there for inspiration” list as I create my own story with a similar, successful outcome. Thank you. And best wishes for continued happiness and health!

  7. on 06 Jan 2007 at 11:43 amLauren

    I have just discovered your site and want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story. Like you, yoyo dieting has been my life and recently I have felt like I just couldn’t lose the weight one more time. You are truly an inspiration to many of us and I know I can lose the weight again and for the last time!

    Best wishes to you and I hope 2007 brings you much happiness, health and success.

  8. on 08 Jan 2007 at 11:22 amVeronica (Ronnie)

    For Roni from Ronnie: Your story is inspirational. My daughter in law had gained 60 pounds after two children, and she is 4′11″. Last year she joined WW and a gym. She has lost 49 pounds. I have done WW, and name it. Including a Ileo-Jejunal bypass, which came down after 12 years. (My 12 skinny years! Unfortunately, the side effects were life threatening.) So, I have been battling the bulge again for the last 17 years. This is my last year before 60: It is now or never. I know your website will be of great help! Keep up the good work!

  9. on 10 Jan 2007 at 5:14 pmCharlene

    Roni - I am also 5′9″ and have yo-yo’d my entire life - I too thought I was fat in high school and did some things I’m not so proud of to try and loose the weight (I was 155lbs too) - I look back now and think what the heck was I thinking!!!!! So long story short - school, marriage, and two kids later (I gained 40 lbs with my daughter & 74lbs with my son)(thank goodness he was a big baby 9lbs 15oz and 22 1/2in. long to kind of make up for some of that (at least that’s what I tried to brainwash myself to think for a couple of years) - I tried WW after I had my son and lost all of the weight plus 10lbs - bringing my total weight loss to 84lbs in like 1 1/2 years - so I too had a tummy tuck and lift!!!!!!! I swear we could be twins!!! Anyway - needless to say since the surgery and since hurricane Katrina I am now 20lbs heavier - so I am starting WW again in hopes not to ruin my surgery results and to be healthier and skinny!!! Well anyway - thanks for inspiring me - it’s so hard to find people out there with similar experiences - especially the height, weights, and surgeries!!!!! Thanks

  10. on 13 Jan 2007 at 12:37 amCrann

    Roni- Thanks so much for sharing your story. I was really fit at the beginning of highschool but I ran track and distance and field hockey etc… then for stupid reasons I dropped all the extra cirricular but kept on eating whatever I wanted… I went up to the 150’s … then University wasn’t kind either… I met my husband gained some more, got pregnant and by the time my son was born I hated and loathed how I looked.. I was at 232… I lost some but not anywhere close to where I wanted to be. Then I found the low carb diet… I was hard core and lost the first 50 lbs super fast I was elated so I became even more hard core then I lost another 43 lbs. I thought I had my problem licked I was never going to go there agian. Well summer holidays came and so did the weight gain,, I lost all control and here I am again back in the 200’s I’ve joined weight watchers, this is my first week and I am hooked. I also am working out this time around to ensure that I establish healthy habits. Thank you for sharing your story… Knowing that someone has walked the same path and made it back to being healthy is inspring… best wishes to you and your family.

  11. on 14 Jan 2007 at 8:19 pmJanis

    Hi Roni… Yep, it’s pretty much my story, too. You’ve done an amazing job on both the weightloss and the work on the website. Thank you for sharing. The only difference between us is that I’m a low-carb lifer and find it quite easy to eat out. You’re an inspiration to many.

  12. on 20 Jan 2007 at 6:12 amchristy

    I am yet another woman with almost an identical story…especially the depression, lack of control, binge eating and gaining about 20 lbs. each year…

    I’m almost obsessed but have a complete disconnect from mind and body…hopefully I will get back to my once healthy self one day…

    you know this already-but you are absolutely beautiful…congratulations on such a great accomplishment…it’s very inspiring…

  13. on 24 Jan 2007 at 1:46 pmKarlene

    I can’t believe how parallel our lives sound. I love visiting your site (which I found just recently). I started weight watchers just before I got married about 4 years ago and lost 24 lbs!! I was happy and active and felt good about myself.

    I don’t why, but I stopped going as soon as I got married. I guess when you lose weight, you think that you can go back to old habits. So NOT TRUE!! The weight gradually crept back, and then some. I hate it. Why did I stop in the first place?

    I am now in my second week of the program and totally motivated. I lost 3.4 lbs in the first week. It seems like such a long road to where I want to be, but I will get there!

    Thanks for the motivation!!

  14. on 01 Feb 2007 at 8:00 pmMichelle

    Growing up I always ate whatever I wanted ~~ HUGE, I mean huge homemade banana splits with my grandfather after school, poptarts for breakfast, bread, biscuits, all the good stuff. My mom and grandma, however, did instill in me to drink water and eat vegetables. Fortunately, I was never too overweight although I am not sure how. I’m in the military and we are required to maintain a certain weight and fitness level~~ I can honestly say I was remiss in my duty. An occasion came up where I had to wear a uniform I hadn'’t worn in a while and it did NOT fit in the least. I had to spend $150 to buy new pants (I carry all extra weight in my hips and butt). A week later, sitting in my hotel room in DC, I held those pants up and cried, thinking ‘your butt is THAT big!’

    As soon as I got home I joined WWer’s. It wasn’t so much about losing amazing amounts of weight as it was about learning to make better food choices and control portions so that I wouldnt get to the point of needing to lose 100+ lbs. Believe me, I was well on my way there. I would eat 6 or more cheddar biscuits at Red Lobster plus a huge cream sauce covered meal and maybe even a desert. Then go to the movies and have popcorn and coke. My husband joked that he didn’t know where I put it all.

    when I started tracking points and journaling, I was surprised by how little food I needed to feel satisfied. I began to realize that, I like others, ate for a myriad of reasons that didn’t involve hunger. I learned to recognize these triggers and developed new ways of coping.

    I got rid of (never lose because if you lose it, you may find it again) 24 lbs and went from a size 12 to a size 4! Many in my family told me this was too thin so I allowed myself to go up to a 6 ~~~ that crept to an 8 and next thing I knew, I needed 10’s. Out of control again!! I am on week 2 of my recommittment to my health and my well-being. I have arthritis and ONE extra pound adds 10 lbs of extra strain to my joints. Doing it for myself - which is the only way to stay the course.

  15. on 18 Feb 2007 at 2:38 amHannah

    Wow, I’m 15 years old, a high school sophomore, and (just like everyone else) this reminded me of myself. I’m 5′8″ and 150 lbs. I too have a problem with binge eating, have starved myself, wishing I was anorexic but I love food too much; so far I haven’t lived out the second part of your story. Anyway, you’ve inspired me to go more slowly, as I was just this morning considering things like fasting or eating 300 calories a day. Thank you.

  16. on 18 Feb 2007 at 4:05 pmSarah

    I kept thinking “this is my life”. I am 5′7′’ and about 175 right now. I gained in undergrad and I’m now in grad school vowing to lose it once and for all. Four years of yo-yo dieting and I’m 20 pounds heavier than when I started. Now I long to be what I once thought was fat. You are an inspiration. Congrats on your success. I love how you put it bluntly. It is about body image for most women, not just health. Thank you for your story!

  17. on 23 Feb 2007 at 4:30 pmCourtney

    I enjoyed reading your story, it is my story too, except I am 56 years old and have never managed to get off the yoyo cycle. Three years ago I lost 50 lbs with WW but have gained back 30. Only this time I got back to WW before I gained it all and then some! I want to quit yoyoing and become stable with my weight, something I have never done. I don’t believe I have weighed the same at any certain time in my life. I can tell you what I weighed at certain times but it is either up or down. I don’t know how to stay focused or motivated or whatever it takes to let food quit ruining my life. Thank you for your story, it gives me hope, even at my age.

  18. on 01 Mar 2007 at 12:13 pmLisa Marie

    At 42 I still have not found the courage to love myself enough to stick to weight watchers. I know that they say that the meetings make WW what it is. I just can not go. I am starting today for the umpteenth time but by myself. I am keeping track of points and exercising and trying to find the strength to keep with it. My husband is in the construction field and has been laid off from work now twice in the past year - and the market is getting slower and slower so a new job for him will be a challenge. On top of that our son is disabled (moved away from home but still calls in crisis weekly) and our daughter is a senior in high school. If you have any advice for me - I would LOVE it.

    I walked two miles today singing “I am proud of myself” the whole way around the track. That is a great step for me.

  19. on 02 Mar 2007 at 4:32 pmAnon

    No one should be horrified about being a size 16. In my opinion, a size 12-14 is perfect.

  20. on 02 Mar 2007 at 10:41 pmroni

    @Anon - For me it wasn’t what I wanted. I don’t think there is anything wrong with specific sizes. But if you are unhappy in your own skin then there is something wrong. Size and weight are very personal things.

  21. on 12 Mar 2007 at 5:19 pmKatie

    Reading your story brought tears to my eyes. You too, tell my story. Your grad school was my first child. Now I’ve had the second child and my weight is highter than it’s ever been. Now I have more time and financial constraints than I’ve ever had. But, I’m going to try. Wish me luck and say a prayer.

  22. on 12 Mar 2007 at 7:05 pmSue

    Roni, I just came across your website and story in search of how many points a Mconald’s grilled chicken wrap with honey mustard sauce is worth. Of course, I already ate it as I purchased a happy meal for my daughter and I needed something to eat that was semi-healthy to get me through till I got errands ran and got home for a healthy dinner full of veggies. I started WW aain 3 weeks ago. I have lost only 3.5 pounds so far, but I really feel as though I have lost inches as I have moved the belt to the next notch (on 2 belts). I lost 32 pounds on WW 5 yrs ago after my daught was born. OK…I am 5′8″ and currently 163 pounds…that is not huge and I realize it, but I am not comfortable with myself or the way I feel. Just being on WW 3 weeks and working out almost daily has elevated my self esteem. I feel that I can do this, however now that I turned 40, I realize it is a slower process. Yeah, your story from youth thru college is way too familiar. Thanks for sharing and feel free to contact me with any good pointers. -Sue

  23. on 13 Mar 2007 at 7:23 amGrace

    I just came across your website and your story almost mirrors mine. I also did the Atkins prior to getting pregnant but I feel that I owe it to myself to eat healthier. I am currently at 162lbs and have to get down to around 113lbs (I’m 5′2″). I started WW just last week Monday and I’ve already lost 2 lbs. I hope that this will be my one and last diet that I have to go on. Healthy living - here I come!!

  24. on 21 Mar 2007 at 9:54 amLaura

    Roni, thank you for being so open and honest with your struggle. I have been overweight most of my life and now I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been. I”m 37 and single and so tired of being the funny, fat friend. I’m tired of going to get togethers with all couples and being referred to as “and this is Laura, she’s not attached to anyone”. I’m tired of walking into a room and knowing I”m the biggest person there. Oh, yeah and the looks I get from people! That’s the worst. I know I”m not supposed to care what other people think of me but I do! It’s time to stop feeling sorry for myself and start doing something for myself. Thank you for sharing!

  25. on 27 Mar 2007 at 2:14 pmFat Asian Lady

    Roni,

    Thank you for being honest with your progress and tips on how to eat healthier and lose weight. You look amazing!

    Growing up, I’ve always been chubby and was out casted by most people ( I had very few friends) and my family members. I was known as the “fat” sister. (my sister is thin) I tried starving myself to try to get my aunts and uncles to accept me but that didn’t work because I love food. Then one day, I just dropped 30lbs in 2 months. Mostly it was baby fat but I gained it all back by not moderating my eating habits.

    I just started back on weight watchers a few days ago and I am confident that it will help. I’ve always had personal trainers and exercised almost everyday but never dieted. I hope to lose 15 to 20 lbs. It’s going to be hard because I use free weights and machines at the gym and since I have more muscles, the lbs are hard to lose. As long as I LOOK like I lost 15 lbs and tone up, I’ll should be fine.

    I realize that exercise and dieting come hand in hand and you can’t just do one and not the other to see results.

    Thanks for the motivation.

  26. on 02 Apr 2007 at 2:20 pmDarlene

    Hi, I really enjoyed reading your story. I been on weight Watchers for about 3 months now and lost 20.8 lbs. I had my son over 2 1/2 yrs ago, and something had to be done.

    I was always skinny as a child until i was 21. Then it was like i woke up one day and whamm i was big!

    I am down to 177 lbs now and hope to get down to atleast 150.

    I really enjoy your website.

    THanks Darlene Canada

  27. on 03 Apr 2007 at 10:16 amChristine

    Your website is so motivational for me. I am so glad to have found it. You rock!

  28. on 05 Apr 2007 at 6:20 pmSamantha

    Thanks so much for putting your story out there! I am a college student on my second round with weight watchers. My goal is to lose the extra weight before graduation . I was thin through high school (although I never felt that way), but gained about 40lbs in my first 2 years of college. I lost 20lbs with my first go at weight watchers and now that I’ve put 10lbs of it back on, it’s time to get back on board. Your recipes are a major help and this time I know I can lose more weight and keep it off!

  29. on 07 Apr 2007 at 12:17 pmdinah

    As I read your story I was amazed at how you sound like me! I know lots of people have already commented on how your story sounded like yours, but I want to add this commen theme as well.

    When I was younger, I wished I was anorexic. I thought a lot about how if I just stopped eating the weight would drop off. Sometimes that thought still pops into my head and I have to shake it violently away before I go back to my old ways of eating only supper.

    Thanks for sharing your story.

  30. on 16 Apr 2007 at 3:05 pmStacy

    Like many others, your story could be about me! I was always thin growing up. I didn’t even gain when I became pregnant with my daughter 16 years ago! I was the ultimate junk food junky (which I believe I learned thru example — my mother eats terribly!) I seriously could eat like 10 candy bars a day on top of my meals and I rarely gained, and if I did it was like 5 pounds, which i would excersize for a few days and off it would come.

    I am 5′8″ and was 145-150 pounds. I was always very muscular, so I had many people tell me that they couldn’t believe I was that heavy.

    When my daughter was 2, I suddenly gained 30 pounds in the matter of a month! No kidding! I was in the army, so when weigh in came, I was mortified. (I was also put on this weight program that now I had to weigh in monthly — how embarrassing!) Obviously I had a metabolic slow down and my eating habits had finally caught up to me — only I didn’t know how to eat more healthy. (I had also had this thing called the Norplant put into my arm, which was an experiemental form of birth control — I honestly think that this contributed to my weight gain, since it was so drastic in such a small time frame.

    That was 14 years ago. I have since yo yo dieted, and gained back 10 more pounds than I had lost. I had, at one time, lost 65 pounds thru extreme physical activity and hurt my back for like a year, so I eventually gained it all back, and then some.

    I avoided scales and mirrors at all costs. I even had this false image of myself and what I really looked like. So when I would see a picture of myself, thats the only time reality set in. The more depressed I got about my weight, the more i would eat.

    In December I went to the Dr. for antidepressants and weight the most I ever weighed. 255 pounds! I was morified.

    At first it was the antidepressant that was curbing my cravings. It initally lead to my losing 20 pounds. Since then, that wonderful curb craving side effect is not effective anymore. So I watch calories and excersize (moderately). I am not setting myself up for unrealistic goals either. I try to get to the gym 2 -3 times a week. I shoot for 1300 calories a day, so when I go to 1500, I am still under my 1700 calorie/day goal which I need to lose weight. (I rarely only eat 1300 and I have lost 17 more pounds).

    I am happy losing 4-5 pounds a month because I know that when I get to my goal weight of 140, I will be used to how to eat to maintain that weight and hopefully not gain it back.

    I hate that I let myself get to this point! I have lost 1/3 of my life being insecure and ashamed of myself. I always thought thin people were just lucky — and some are — but now I see that we have to watch our calories so that we don’t gain weight in the first place — which was something I never knew when I was younger. I know now, unfortunatly I had to learn the hard way and apparently I learn pretty hard!

    But I am committed, and inspired by your story because it is so very much like mine. Thank You.

  31. on 18 Apr 2007 at 7:15 pmDee

    “Looking back, I wasn’t diagnosed with an eating disorder but it seems obvious now. I would get depressed about my weight and binge eat. I remember times when I would sneak food. I remember ordering at restaurant and figuring out how I could get the most food. I remember eating meals just because it was mealtime not because I was hungry and in spite of the fact that I just ate.”—I actually have tears in my eyes because I have gone through the exact same thing. I guess I’m just happy I’m not the only one…although I frequently feel as though I am. Just found your site while search for info on this yummy Fiber One bar I had today…keep up the good work!

  32. on 20 Apr 2007 at 12:23 pmJennifer

    Hi Roni! Your story is very motivating. I am a WW Dropout! I joined ww again 1 1/2 weeks ago. At my first weigh in I was down 4.8 lbs., only 65 more to go! I am 5′10 and started at 236.8. My goal is around 160 lbs, I was there 11 years ago and felt good about myself. I am happily married with two children, ages 6 & 4. I have a big problem with too much fast food and finishing what my kids don’t eat. I am in the process of printing out all of your recipes and menus. I hope to be as big of success as you are.

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  34. on 28 Apr 2007 at 3:47 pmRachel

    Ok, like so many others… this story for the most part is one of my own.. at least about binge eating.. unfortunately for me, I went from a very small framed 5yr old, to a not so small 6yr old I remember in 5th grade, 10yrs old weight in at 130lbs! (what I wouldn’t give for that now 17yrs late) I too did the atkins diet, and did well and lot quite a bit of weight, however, I couldn’t continue it, and gained and gained and gained.. in Feb of 05 I joined weight watchers and over the next year lost 35-40lbs.. I’ve since put back on abuot 7 and am down 30lbs from my original weight.. but for the most part, in the last year, I’ve just maintained, so I am back, 2 weeks into doing it stead.. and 5lbs down (now 225 my starting weight originally was 255) but have so much more to lose..I’m trying to set small goals.. right nwo, its to get back down to below 220 (my lowest weight was 217.5) so thanks for your story!

  35. on 02 May 2007 at 3:29 amSheryl

    Roni,

    Thank you for sharing your story! I have lost on WW before, but you have given me the encouragement I needed to get back on track and before a forever “AFTER”. I know food addiction all too well and I can relate fully with your story. I was thin all through school and long to be that skinny girl again… I didn’t feel your hs pain until my 20’s, but it hurt just as much then as my skinny friends stayed thin and I grew and grew and grew. I have hormone challenges as well, but I know that with WW I can meet my weight-loss goals, too. THANK YOU!

  36. on 02 May 2007 at 5:34 amXRumer

    Hallo! Es hat sich doch gezeigt, dass die 301 Umleitung einer minus-31 Domain nichts bringt weil die Seite auf die umgeleitet wird auch auf Platz 31 landet. Wenn nun jemand seine -31 Domain auf meine Domain umleiten wurde um mich als Konkurrenten zu argern, gabe es fur mich keine Moglichkeit diese Manipulation herauszufinden. Ich wurde ratseln was ich falsch gemacht hatte und dabei ist es nur ein Trick der Konkurrenz. Edit: Ich habe die Frage vergessen! Gibt es doch eine Moglichkeit herauszufinden ob jemand seine Domain auf meine umgeleitet hat?

  37. on 08 May 2007 at 8:03 amdoreen

    Roni,

    You are an inspiration in every way. I joined weight watchers 2 weeks ago and so far love the program. I am 30 years old and have been over weight my whole life. I’m so tired of this struggle and I intend to end it with this program. Thank you for all your great advice and for your honesty with your battle. It’s so great to hear other peoples stories!! God bless.

  38. on 08 May 2007 at 7:18 pmAimee

    This is really a great story, and you should be proud of yourself, as am I! I’m 15, a high school sophomore and just last year i was 5′3′’ and weighed the same as you, 150! I went to weight watchers and lost 30 pounds!!! weight watchers really is the best diet to use!

  39. on 12 May 2007 at 1:07 amPcm Based Ringtone

    giornata mondiale dei diritti umani (il 10 dicembre): sarebbe stato giusto processarlo?

  40. on 20 May 2007 at 12:31 pmMari

    How old do you have to be to join WW? My daughter, 11, is 130 lbs already and the Pediatrician wants her to go to a Dietician. Insurance won’t pay and I have often watched, and envied, those that do well on WW. It must work.

    The recipes here on your site, Roni, are unbelievable!! I’m so excited to have found your journey and plan to continue to watch. This is so inspirational!

  41. on 22 May 2007 at 11:28 amMilissa

    This one is for Mari - You can join weight watchers at anytime because it is about making healthy choices. It is not a diet and once I was able to convince myself of that I was successful. I have learned to take my favorite foods and turn them into figure friendly. Substitue the vegetable oil for olive oil, use non fat cheese, low fat milk, lean ground beef. etc. The bill at the grocery store will be more but it is worth every penny to feel and look good on the inside and out.

    I to was on weight watchers and was successful. In 4 months I went from 170 lbs and barely fitting into a size 12 to 145 and in size 8 to 10 jeans and medium shirts. I was able to maintain the weight for almost a year, but faltered when I got pregnant the following summer. I took eating for 2 to a whole new level. At over 230 lbs before giving birth I new that I could not do this anymore. I waited until my son was 6 weeks to join WW again, but it has been wonderful. The weight is coming off a bit slower this time because I am breast feeding and you should not lose more than 1 -2 lbs a week, but I am down to 180 lbs in 5 months and working feverishly towards my goal of 145 again. I know it can happen.

  42. on 29 May 2007 at 3:30 pmMary

    Thank you for this great inspiration! I started getting serious (for real this time!) when I found out I had diabetes this past January. Since then, I have started journaling again (A MUST!!) and really being honest with myself, and I have lost 45 lbs so far. I have more energy, and WANT to exercise, and do things again. I am now down to the weight I was when I was pregnant and my baby is ONLY 19! The main thing is to not beat yourself up, and start today. And just try to get through today. And then start again tomorrow. And remember, that you are not alone. This web site proves that!

  43. on 02 Jun 2007 at 2:54 pmLisa

    This site is awesome! Thanks for sharing your story.. and reading all of the other replies from other women is so inspiring to me.

    I’m 28 years old, just had my 2nd baby, and after gaining weight before & during the pregnancy, I ended up about at 250 lbs. after I had my daughter. I slowly lost some of the weight naturally from breastfeeding and having a 4-year old to run around with, but it wasn’t nearly enough. I have been hearing so much about WW from my mother in law and a girlfriend of mine, and after hearing how they can actually EAT :) I decided it was for me. I haven’t actually attended any meetings, but I bought the books on ebay and have been researching food preparation online. It also helps that my husband it totally on board - he had recently lost a bunch of weight on Atkins but got to a point where he just couldn’t eat another meatball!

    When I started following the points system strictly a few weeks ago, I was hungry the first few days, honestly. I was used to eating WAY MORE than I needed. By about the fourth day it got to be not so bad. I can’t help but to weigh myself everyday and to my amazement, I lost a pound almost everyday that first week - 5.2 pounds total! When I officially started WW, I was 235 lbs. and this morning I weighed in a 222.3. I’m on my way!

    THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for this site - the food ideas you have posted are what has been keeping me on track. I hope you feel that the time you take to post info and pics is worth it when you know what it means to someone like me. :)

  44. on 05 Jun 2007 at 1:02 pmTammy

    Roni:

    Your site is wonderful. I hope you know how much it helps others to see your success. I have a similar story as everyone else here. A bit overweight in high school, then 5 - 10 lbs each year.

    After the birth of my children and for the next decade, I just didn’t care about my weight or anything. I told myself that they needed me right now and that my needs would come later. How wrong I was. What they needed most is what I needed most - for me to put myself first and treat myself well. By doing that I am a better mother and wife.

    I tell myself everyday that I AM a healthy person and that I AM worth the time and effort. Then everything else comes naturally. I write down all of my food (1200 cals/day) and exercise 4 - 5 times per week. I am running a 5k with my hubby this weekend. Nothing is a struggle this time. It’s work but I enjoy it.

    I have lost 50 lbs over the last year and will lose another 20 lbs in the next few months. I feel like I have a new life. It looks like you do too. Keep up the terrific work. That’s what is - work. But you are so worth it.

  45. on 07 Jun 2007 at 5:34 pmMary Anne

    Roni,

    Thank you for your honesty! I have just reached my highest weight…200 pounds. I am 5′10″ and do not want to be the BIG teacher (I teach high school). I would love some support, need the support, as I started my diet this morning. I am so scared of failure, but more affraid to be too big to have children.

    Congratulations on your success and thank you again for sharing your story.

  46. on 07 Jun 2007 at 10:35 pmBelinda

    HI Roni!

    Just came across your blog while looking for some stuffs for work.

    Absolutely fantastic and the most important thing in losing weight, is that you were motivated and concious of what you were doing.

    I will be grateful if i can have some tips with you. Let me explain.

    I have an important ceremony to assist in 2 weeks and would like to lose some 4-6 pounds. I am 1m65 for 65kgs.

    The problem is that the fat is located in the belly region and i look like a 4 months pregnant woman. What should i do to lose it?

    Hmmm..In fact, i don’t like dieting and is against any sort of deprivation. I usually eat what i want but in smaller portions to reduce calories.

  47. on 07 Jun 2007 at 11:13 pmRhonda

    I just emailed you from your story on msn and then read your whole story on this site. It pretty much brought tears to my eyes. Aside from the personal story the battle with the weight yo yo dieting and the ‘binge’ eatting (disorder which I’ve decided is a real disorder….although I really don’t like that term) it was like reading about myself.

    Thank you so much for sharing your story I think it was the kick that I needed. To know that there are others out there just like me, not obese but not skinny and longing to be!

  48. on 08 Jun 2007 at 1:30 pmTawnia

    Roni ~ I love your site! Today is my 1 year joining weight Watchers Anniversary. I have lost 61.4 pounds. Started in a size 20 and my size 10’s are falling off of me this morning. Thank you for sharing your story. I’m now addicted to your site. My daughter Alyssa was diagnosed with Stage 4~S Neuroblastoma Cancer at 28 days old and I had a website for her and people would write saying how they were addicted and now I understand. Alyssa has been in Remission for 15 months and 6 days. Not a day goes by that I don’t say a prayer for her but watching her go through the Chemo and everything else made me realize that I needed to change my ways. weight Watchers has taught me so much and I want to say thank you for being so honest about everything and I admire your strength. Keep it up and know that you’re not alone. Love your recipes Tawnia

  49. on 10 Jun 2007 at 10:38 amLaura

    read your life story, and add me to it, overweight all my life, always the chunky one, finally did lose it, mostly got myself motivated after sooooo many trips to weight watchers, always lost interest, but always returned with telling myself, you know it works, stay with it…..and i’m still with it as of today, highest weight was 247, i’m now 158, i want to be 145, around there, and all I do is bounce around where I’m at now, up and down, I want to quit AGAIN, but I won’t allow myself that, I want to be a success at this , I’ve come too far to give it up, I don’t want to go back there, ever again!Your site I love it, and will continue to be a constant reader here, thanks sooo much for being here now and for being there then…….Laura Rice

  50. on 12 Jun 2007 at 10:10 pmMary Jo

    Hi Roni! I actually found your site looking for WW points for Manwich bbq. I’m facinated and inspired by it. I just started WW about three weeks ago - and I’ve lost 8 lbs.- I did not go over my daily points until 2 days ago and I have not been over my weekly points so far. I am surprised at WW. I have done many diet programs over the years but not WW - I don’t know why. I know I’ll have a day of reconing - but I have to say that so far it works great! I am learning about what adds up and what I can have and not have - we’[ll see. Thanks for your inspiration. Mary Jo

  51. on 16 Jun 2007 at 1:01 pmLisa

    Your story is really an inspiration. I’ve been on weight watchers for 2 weeks and I have lost 8 lbs.

    I’ve always felt as though I’m the heaviest in the group, even though everyone says I’m not overweight. I’ve been on and off diets since I was about 12, but nothing has worked except weight watchers. I’m 5′7 and right now I weight 172 lbs. My highest weight was 195 lbs, 2 years ago. But for so long it seemed like I was only able to lose those 15-20 lbs, and I felt like a was doing something wrong, now I know it’s just cause I hadn’t found the right diet-plan for myself.

    I had doubts about weight Watchers at first, but now I understand why so many women & men love this plan. It’s so easy and lets you still enjoy the foods you would normally eat, but you’re in control of your own success. I admit I’ve gone over my daily point value a few times, but the weight still comes off.

    The main reason for my weight loss is because my mother & sister are both diabetic, and I want to try and stay as healthy as I can.

    I’ve already learned a lot about weight Watchers, and a lot of the help has come from your site. You’ve done a great thing by posting your story, recipes, and countless other things for those of us trying to better ourselves.

    Thanks so much for your inspiration, this site is just what I needed.

  52. on 20 Jun 2007 at 9:41 amMom2boys

    Thanks so much for sharing your story. Like the others, I feel like I could’ve wrote it myself.

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25 Comments :

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your story is truely inspiring. I'm only 16 and it seems like that's the way I have been most of my life. I am on weight watchers now, but your story lets me know that I CAN do it just like you did. thanks.

- Aubrey

August 4, 2007 5:48 PM  
Anonymous Nancy said...

Your early years remind me of myself. When I was in the 7th grade I weighed 150lbs. In the 8th grade I dieted down to 120. Trying to lose more, I ate as little as I could stand and longed for the ability to stop eating all together. Then I gave up all hope and gained a massive amount of weight, this is the point where our stories become dissimilar. Another interesting point, we were both 5'8 when we started dieting and our adult height is 5'9 ;)

August 24, 2007 6:15 PM  
Anonymous Theresa said...

Hi Roni! I love your site. A friend and I started WW about 2 months ago. After 6 weeks I reached my 10% goal. I was so excited, now I have hit a time where I can't seem to stay on track. I really like the WW flex plan,and gotten me a lot of positive feedback from friends and co workers. Your story has been really encouraging, it lets the rest of me know that even though I have had a set back that I can still do this. I have always had to be bery careful with my weight so that I didn't gain weight, but when I got pregnant the first time I decided I didn't care if I gained weight,and boy did I! I was very determined and lost most of it then found out I was pregnant again! After that I just gained adn gained, WW is the only thing that has even come close to working for me. Anyway, I just wanted to say thank you so much for sharing your story!!

August 25, 2007 11:51 AM  
Blogger Kimberly said...

What an inspiring story! Thanks for sharing it. I'm the same height of you, and was up to the same highest weight after my second child. I'm halfway through my weight loss journey now, and reading this was a great kick in the pants.

August 28, 2007 7:19 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am 25 yrs after my sons birth and was always skinny. I have tried everything, I remarried 8 yrs ago and that is when this happened, they say you are happy, well no I am not, I am fat. I am not happy, I do not know why I have the urge to drown myself in food, sneaking, hiding no one will see, RIGHT??? I did try ww, really and the truth be told I gained .5lbs the first week. The DR said I am healthy, so it has to be me. I am so tired of being tired, what do I do?

lost in Arkansas

October 2, 2007 2:19 PM  
Blogger Roni said...

lost in Arkansas,

Something has to snap for you. I was the same way, I would sneak food on the way home from the grocery store so my husband wouldn't see.

Listen, you need to take the first step. Join an online community or start going back to WW. You need support. Second, start taking it choice by choice. Every time you are about to eat something ask yourself why? are you hungry? are you bored? sad? happy? Keep a journal, it will help. Email me if you want. roni@weightwatchen.com

October 5, 2007 11:13 PM  
Anonymous sue said...

Hi Roni,

Great advice! I'm 31 lbs down since my "new" journey began. I have about 50 more to go. I truly enjoy your inpuut and know that you will be there with me!

Sue

November 8, 2007 10:08 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

great story. thanks for sharing! i'm so glad I found your blog and i look forward to reading it. :)

December 6, 2007 12:34 PM  
Anonymous Char said...

Roni,

Thanks for sharing your story...like many others...I do share the same yoyo effect with you as well as the binge eating and depression. It was so great to find this site and to get the support from other WW Members!! I am so inspired by your journey..and my treat to myself once I lose the 83lbs is a tummy tuck...well and a boob lift, cuz lets face it...lol! Your pictures look great and are a true inspiration. Thanks and have a great week!

December 10, 2007 10:27 AM  
Anonymous Alesa said...

I stumbled upon your site just searching for snack idea's. It's great! I've added it to my 'favorites' and think I'll use you for inspiration and motivation as I try to get back to my eating and exercise routine post holiday! I'm 43, in the Air Force and work out w/my squadron 3 x weekly, sometimes on Saturday. I've always been about 145-150, but in my later years have added a few lbs. 165 now!!! The food is the problem! I've found that the the 'low glycemic' approach works best for me...basically like all healthy eating plans: 3 healthy meals a day, a few snacks, watch the ingredients and control portion sizes. I look forward to reading your site during the week. Congrats on your progress, thanx for the support through this well maintained site and oh, by the way, you look great!!!!!

January 1, 2008 5:41 PM  
Anonymous Linda said...

first of all....kudo's on such a wonderful website...thank you for sharing your personal experiences, I feel like I have support whenever I need to be encouraged to continue to go on.
After my 2 children 10 & 14, I have always held on to this extra 20-25 lbs....and it's come time to loose it.
My son and I started WW @ home at the Beginning of December...the toughest month to do it, I know, but there is no time like "NOW"...I'm happy to report it's 5 weeks later and we're both down 6 lbs...as little as that may seem, we are so proud of ourselves.
I too am 5'8 and 179 lbs and size 14.
Size 10 would be crazy!!!
I would be happy with 11/12 and in shape.

Thank you.

January 7, 2008 9:35 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello. I can relate. I too, am hypothyroid, and have been from 105 (after having scoliosis surgery) and gained 40 lbs when in a full body cast. At my highest, I was 173. I'm now at 150, the kicker is I am just under 5'3", and anxious to get to 120. Not for vanity, but because I need to alleviate stress on my spine. Even eating right and moderate exercise (again back issue precludes running), I can't break this plateau. Hopefully your story will spur me on. Good for you on your achievement.

January 16, 2008 10:39 PM  
Anonymous Jenna said...

Hi Roni-
I can't believe I am just now reading your blog. You know, reading your story was sort of a surreal experience. It was like reading my "weight life" on paper. (or computer for that matter) But then to scroll down and see that so many other women have the same story is really amazing. It's so great to find a place where we can all connect! Thanks!

February 7, 2008 6:43 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Roni!

I have been "stealthing" around after having discovered your blog some time ago. I just wanted to let you know that I really enjoy this blog and appreciate the time you take out of your very hectic life to post here and also to post at GreenLiteBites.

I truly don't know how you find the time to do it...work, take care of the Toddler and post to your blogs, but I do appreciate it. I get tired just reading about your days.

I joined WW in January 2005, lost 65 lbs., made my goal and here I am 2 years later and still maintaining that loss. I have strayed from time to time (hey, I'm only human) but I am fortunate to be able to get back on track without too much damage.

Why did things on WW click for me back in 2005, when it didn't click all those times before?? Wish I could give you a magic answer. Let's say that in 2005 it finally hit me; WW is not a diet, it's a change in lifestyle.

I am happy that I seem to have the determination to stick with it, even on those days I want to scarf down a whole bag of cheese popcorn.

I have many resources to help me in my journey. Thank you for being one of those resources.

Keep up the good work!

March 1, 2008 11:13 PM  
Anonymous Erica said...

Thanks for sharing Roni! Like just about everyone else who commented, your story could be my story. I am in week 7 of WW and have lost 9 lbs. I'm excited to reach my goal. Thanks for inspiring me!

March 8, 2008 4:35 PM  
Blogger eggjred said...

A friend found your website and directed me to it. I just started weight watchers and am very nervous it will not work for me. As I read through your blog so much of what you say I can remember feeling that same way. I am 23 years old and have not had any kids and still I have stretch marks (it feels like) from head to toe. I was always around a size 140 in high school and in college I average about 160. Now that I am out in the "real world" and dealing with breakups,new jobs, less activity in my life I have put on about 70 plus pounds. I am so ready for it all to go away. I have already started exercising in the evening time, and eating much healthier. I however have not weighed myself. I am scared. I am mostly scared that once I start weighing myself regularly I will get discouraged when I am not losing. Any advice would be helpful. I loved reading your story and am thankful to know there are other women out there that feel the same way, and were successful in doing something about it.

March 14, 2008 4:46 PM  
Blogger eggjred said...

A friend found your website and directed me to it. I just started weight watchers and am very nervous it will not work for me. As I read through your blog so much of what you say I can remember feeling that same way. I am 23 years old and have not had any kids and still I have stretch marks (it feels like) from head to toe. I was always around a size 140 in high school and in college I average about 160. Now that I am out in the "real world" and dealing with breakups,new jobs, less activity in my life I have put on about 70 plus pounds. I am so ready for it all to go away. I have already started exercising in the evening time, and eating much healthier. I however have not weighed myself. I am scared. I am mostly scared that once I start weighing myself regularly I will get discouraged when I am not losing. Any advice would be helpful. I loved reading your story and am thankful to know there are other women out there that feel the same way, and were successful in doing something about it.

March 14, 2008 4:47 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

A friend found your website and directed me to it. I just started weight watchers and am very nervous it will not work for me. As I read through your blog so much of what you say I can remember feeling that same way. I am 23 years old and have not had any kids and still I have stretch marks (it feels like) from head to toe. I was always around a size 140 in high school and in college I average about 160. Now that I am out in the "real world" and dealing with breakups,new jobs, less activity in my life I have put on about 70 plus pounds. I am so ready for it all to go away. I have already started exercising in the evening time, and eating much healthier. I however have not weighed myself. I am scared. I am mostly scared that once I start weighing myself regularly I will get discouraged when I am not losing. Any advice would be helpful. I loved reading your story and am thankful to know there are other women out there that feel the same way, and were successful in doing something about it.

March 14, 2008 4:48 PM  
Blogger KelliAnn said...

Hi Roni,

My name is Kelli, I'm 22, and just wanted to tell you how inspired by you I am.
I think your great (especially in your blogs and videos, you crack me up). I
just read an older post by you about self diagnosed binge eating disorder.
This really hit home with me because I have also diagnosed myself with that and
have been battling it for about two years now. I am just finishing up my
masters degree, and the past few years have just been really hard and I have
developed an extreme eating disorder. I have tried different things, and can
lose the weight but then it just comes back with a vengeance. I seemed to have
the same history as you, where I was never really "overweight", but I was always
bigger than my friends, and then when I got to college it just got worse.
Reading your posts everyday has been very motivating for me. My cousin has been
trying to get me to try weight watchers for a while now and I really think I am
ready to give it a try. My biggest fear though is u
sing all the points. I never feel like if I eat all of the points that I'm allowed, that I
will actually lose weight. So I was just wondering, when you were in the losing
phase, did you use all your points everyday, and how many did you try to stick
to as your target. Thanks again for all of your inspiration!!

With great thanks and admiration,
Kelli

March 14, 2008 8:16 PM  
Blogger KelliAnn said...

Hi Roni,

My name is Kelli, I'm 22, and just wanted to tell you how inspired by you I am.
I think your great (especially in your blogs and videos, you crack me up). I
just read an older post by you about self diagnosed binge eating disorder.
This really hit home with me because I have also diagnosed myself with that and
have been battling it for about two years now. I am just finishing up my
masters degree, and the past few years have just been really hard and I have
developed an extreme eating disorder. I have tried different things, and can
lose the weight but then it just comes back with a vengeance. I seemed to have
the same history as you, where I was never really "overweight", but I was always
bigger than my friends, and then when I got to college it just got worse.
Reading your posts everyday has been very motivating for me. My cousin has been
trying to get me to try weight watchers for a while now and I really think I am
ready to give it a try. My biggest fear though is u
sing all the points. I never feel like if I eat all of the points that I'm allowed, that I
will actually lose weight. So I was just wondering, when you were in the losing
phase, did you use all your points everyday, and how many did you try to stick
to as your target. Thanks again for all of your inspiration!!

With great thanks and admiration,

Kelli

March 14, 2008 8:17 PM  
Blogger Roni said...

Thank you so much guys!

Kelli - My target changed as I lost. I always shot for my daily, whatever it happen to be. then If I was hungry I'd dip into flex. My philosophy was to save up flex on for the weekends so I can eat out, etc. Just think of them like money. That really helped me bargain with myself. Because that's what it's all about!

March 17, 2008 12:12 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

OMG, this is me minus the baby. I am so glad I found this blog, I just joined WW at Work. I have my first week weigh in tomorrow. This has given me great inspiration. We are exactly the same height and weigh exactly the same when you started and my gold weight is 140 - 150, I have a long way to go, however, I will keep motivated by this bolg. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

April 1, 2008 10:58 PM  
Blogger limkenfl said...

Thanks so Much for your story, blog and pics. 230lbs 6 foot 34 y/o asian/american dental student, starting to kick the weight too.
Thanks!
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